so nervous!

I had the most amazing day with you!

My heart is still racing from our time together. I genuinely feel like I fell in love again. Seeing you in person for the first time, I was so nervous. When I first saw you marching out I couldn’t stop smiling. I was worried that you wouldn’t want a pic before the tap-out but I took a chance. That first kiss in the car, I felt myself shaking. I didn’t know what to do. I think I am a bit intimidated by you. It amazes me how your presence changes the atmosphere. I continue to be impressed by you. There are so many things about you that I desire to have. And the mere fact that you love me makes my life worth living. YOU ARE SO AMAZING! I’m ready to sleep so that tomorrow can come sooner. Please tell me that I’m not delusional. Tell me that I’m not loving too hard or falling too far in love. Tell me that my feelings are rational.
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I must admit, however. If, in fact, I’m being irrational, then so be it. So long as you love me, I will be here to receive that love. I will do my best to give you that love in return. Sitting next to you felt more than just comfortable. It was more than pleasant. It was more than exciting. It felt like something that I’ve never experienced in my life. It felt…right. For the first time in my life…loving someone felt right.
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And it was amazing.
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And I want to live in that moment forever
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You did that to me
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And the more I think about it, as I write this, the more I push the negatives thoughts out of my head. And these thoughts are heavy. It takes so much effort to push, and I get tired some times, but you make it all worth it.
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I will fight will all that I have to keep this feeling. To keep you loving me. To keep loving you.
Aug 30, 2023, 11:44 PM
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I love you more than I realized. You are truly my everything