longing for you
You inspire me.
My Love!!!
First and foremost, I want you to know how deeply I miss you and how proud I am of you. You have always been an inspiration to me, and I know that you will be great at everything you do, including this! As you go through this and face various obstacles, always keep in mind that I am here, supporting you from afar. I am your biggest cheerleader, and I have complete confidence in you. Whenever it gets tough, remember that you are stronger than you realize, and the love we share is incredible!
I hope you’re doing better. You mentioned that your throat was hurting. In my mind you’re laid up in a bed with a body cast, unable to move.
I know you’re fine, probably bossing those young cadets around. Have they started calling you mom yet? Please take good care of yourself. I know boot camp can be demanding, but I believe in you, and I know that you will emerge from this experience even more resilient and accomplished.
I miss you so much and I can’t wait to see you again!
I’m not crying…you’re crying!
This past week has been especially difficult, and I’ve been thinking about you nonstop. I’ve gone through your IG account so many times, just staring at your face. I’ve been getting out of the house but it’s just not the same without you. I miss getting dressed with you. Watching you put on makeup or styling your hair. Drinking cocktails while listening to music. Thinking about those simple things takes me to my happy place.
My parents and I went to Europa (7/21), but they moved the lessons to Blue Palm for that night, so we just ate at the restaurant. My mom, of course, has plenty of questions about you/us. Wanting to know how serious we are and if I’m going to move to wherever you go after training. It always feels so troublesome to answer these questions again and again, but deep down I love talking about my feelings for you. Ever since you left, a void has been created in my life, and it serves as a constant reminder of our love. The days seem so much longer, and the nights feel so empty and cold without you. It’s amazing how your absence can make even the smallest moments together so cherished and memorable. I find myself constantly looking back at the memories we’ve created together, reliving every smile, every touch, and every intimate conversation. Those moments have become my sanctuary, the place where I find solace and strength. Each morning, I wake up hoping to see a message from you, praying that you’re doing well and staying strong. While I understand that boot camp is a journey of growth and self-discovery, I can’t help but feel the distance between us, a distance that makes every day feel like an eternity. I still get scared sometimes, thinking that this time away from me might make you lose interest in us. It’s been difficult fighting that feeling but I’m trying my best. Transitioning from living with you and seeing you every day to not seeing you at all is hard. Sometimes it feels like I’m mourning the loss of a loved one. I am still amazed and honored that you have shown me so much love over these past few months.
Nik Nak
I met up with Nikki and Patrick at Rollhouse last week, they were alone in the Karaoke room singing to each other. I sang one song and then left them alone. I didn’t want to take over their time, even though Nik wanted me to stay. When you meet someone new you don’t always want to share them, so I didn’t stick around too long. She asked me what I will do when I see you for graduation, if I was going to do nasty things to you (her words were much lewder). I just want to scoop you up and hold you tight.
Despite the pain of missing you, I want you to know that I am immensely proud of you and the decision you’ve made to embark on this journey. Your courage and determination never cease to amaze me, and I have no doubt that you will succeed in everything you set your mind to.
♥
With all my love and longing,
While you’re away, I will be here, holding you close in my heart, sending you all my love, strength, and support (while eating my Carolina Golds at Blvd). I eagerly await the day when I can see you again, for that moment will be the sweetest reunion, and all the distance and separation will be a distant memory. Until that day comes, know that you are cherished and adored, and my love for you grows stronger with each passing moment. Keep pushing forward, my love. You have the power to conquer any challenge that comes your way.